Mayday

It's Beltane tonight...

I kinda wish that I could dance and weave those ribbons,

tie that fruit and bread to the trees,

make that cone with a circle of people I love..

leap over that fire and shed that all dead winter bark..

let go of my worries...

"Father forgive me my trespasses as I forgive those who trespass against me, for I freely forgive all men. If we would secure and cultivate the love of others, we must love others, even our enemies as well as friends. . . . I possess the principle of love. All I can offer the world is a good heart and a good hand. The Saints can testify wether I am willing to lay down my life for my brethren. If it has been demonstrated that I have been willing to die for a "Mormon", I am bold to declare before Heaven that I am just as ready to die in defeding the rights of a Presbyterian, a batist, or a good man of any other denomination. . . . It is a love of liberty which inspires my soul." -- HOC 5:498 (Joseph Smith Jr.)

Dream is Destiny

Let's talk about Maktub... "Maktub" means "It is written." There are some Arabs that feel that "It is written" is not such a good translation, because... although everything is already written, God is compassionate, and wrote it all down just to help us, guide us. Maktub is a paradox to me...It seems as though nothing can be fate because God is all-knowing, God has granted us our free will (or so they say), But the question has always lingered, since before 350 B.C., since before Aristotle, that is; How can both fate and freedom coexist? Obviously, by fate, we are chained down to whatever is bound to happen...certainly no freedom can dwell there when whichever choice we make is the choice that we were destined to make. And we all know, freedom can not be....no matter what, there are always the laws of physics, of the universe..that must be followed. You're body, is just a complex arrangement of carbon molecules, just water, so our behaviour isn't gonna be an exception to these laws. With laws, there isn't freedom. I could ask, What if those laws which sustain the universe were taken away in order to make way for freedom? Can that be? What would happen if it were so?---------------------------------------------

No, really... I'm asking you, because I do not know the answer. Who knows? If that were to happen, maybe we'd all just end up like little whatchamacallit's (atom's?) that are bound by constant randomness, absolutely anything could happen, absolutely any time despite the surrounding situation.....But then again, if that were so...we'd still be "bound" to those random bursts and "bound" can only mean limits, and limit's can only mean the lack of pure freedom. -------------------

So, why bother with thinking about free will? Why not just accept that we're bound by laws and move on? Because we can't escape the question of free will. Just think of individuality, who you are..it's just an accumulation of all the free choices you made, and you can only be respected for things you did of your own free will. And what about responsibility? How can you be held responsible for something you had no power over because makub was just using you as a vessel to carry on its story. ------------------------

I guess..In order to really understand what it truly is, we need to understand the concept of time. Nothing can be lost at at least trying to understand time because it is full of so many mysteries. 'God is all knowing' and 'we have our amanah..our free agency and our own responsibility' can coexist, at the same time (just as a half empty glass is ‘half full’ and ‘half empty’ at the same time, both are statement of truth, just as every moment is a 'holy' moment (as the presence of god is 'holy'), therefore, you experience this holy moment while at the same time you can watch this moment in the state of just the awareness of that moment). God is beyond time...God created Time. He can easily grab quantum physics by the scuff and live above and within the past, present, and future all at once. While we, measley spirits trapped in prisons of flesh ;) , are bound to the present plane only. We can only think about future, wish about the future and past, remember the past...but before we grasp what exactly is the present it becomes the past. Since God is beyond time, He knows all, and His knowing all signifies everything is written.-------------------------------------------------------------------

Y'know... in writing all of this, I am not taking a particular side....I'm taking a scientific look, a religious look, 'new age', philosophical, shared look and writing a small portion of my thoughts and impressions on these things put together as one idea.-------------------------------------------

I mean, for all we know...What we call "life" could just be a dream....a dream within a dream within a dream within a dream. People talk about 'lucid dreaming'..being able to stay concious while sleeping and control your dreams, CREATE, and manipulate that 'dimension', that perception of reality. Maybe that's all I'm doing now, and I can make myself wake up, but I will be 'waking up' to another reality, another 'dream'.--------------------------------------------------

Or...maybe, this 'God' guy, that IS everywhere, IN everything, IS everything, is just posing us a question...over and over until we answer S/He/It, "Yes". S/He/It's asking us "Do you want to be one with eternity? Do you want to be in Jannah, Elysium, in Heaven?" to which we keep answering, "No. No. No thank you. No." . In which case, the whole story of life leads down to a core of ...The transition of moving from "no" to "yes". So... ultimately, S/He/It waits for us to finally answer, WITH the right intentions/understanding/readiness, "Yes, I give in. Yes, I accept. Yes, I embrace."----------------------------------

Or...MAYBE.....maybe this, maybe that, maybe we're putting too much thought into it all...All of what I've just said could be a load of crap and completely meaningless, and for all you know, I might have been aware of this and just put together a bunch of big fancy words to make me sound all smart and sophisticated and wise...But to give my honest word, it is painful for me to even try to comprehend these things, let alone just KNOW the answers to these questions, honest to goodness, I don't know how someone like me could think of these things (although, I know I am deffinately not the first to)..it's sorta like it is channelled to me from some other source, maybe even my own subconcious without realizing it, maybe GOD......but in any case, I'm gettin' a little sleepy now and...I... think...I might...might.. just.......... ---------------------------------------



"To say yes to one instant is to say yes to all of existence."

Obelisk of Fire

And before that chasm of light,

As within a furnace bright,

Column, tower, and dome, and spire,

Shine like obelisks of fire,

Pointing with inconstant motion

From the altar of dark ocean

To the sapphire-tinted skies; As the flames of sacrifice

From the marble shrines did rise,

As to pierce the dome of gold

Where Apollo spoke of old.

-Percy Bysshe Shelley, Lines Written Among the Euganean Hills, 1819

Surprise!

It was s'posed to be a surprise, but I artfully ruined it :)

Turns out my dad and I are going to get away for a few days and see Evan preform at Carnegie :) yay!

( I think I had too high of expectations when e handed me the tickets... reading... "Days Inn, Alexandria"....wait....Alexandria, Egypt ???? :P But this is good too.)

We're gonna mozy our way up...stop in Washington D.C. for a day... go to museums, galleries... etc. Then head to Philly and go to a few more rather prestigious galleries etc. (Maybe I can lick the Liberty Bell for real this time ;) ) Then FINALLY, to NYC...see a few sites in the city (I'm not so sure I want to go to Ground Zero, I will cry.) until the show. But the twist is, Evan doesn't know I'm coming. He has the idea that we can't afford (which we can't lol, and I'm giving up my class til next year to do this) So he won't even expect it. :)

I'm verrrrrrrrrry excited for this. (Now I get to brag that MY brother is singing in the CARNEGIE ;) )

http://www.carnegiehall.org/article/box_office/events/evt_7733.html?selecteddate=03192007 (see the "Madison High School, Rexburg, Idaho"....)

"A Bodhisattva is someone who has compassion within himself or herself and who is able to make another person smile or help someone suffer less. Every one of us is capable of this."

"We really have to understand the person we want to love. If our love is only a will to possess, it is not love. If we only think of ourselves, if we know only our own needs and ignore the needs of the other person, we cannot love."

"In true dialogue, both sides are willing to change."

"People deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. Why not try and see positive things, to just touch those things and make them bloom?"

--Thich Nhat Hanh

Ek Ong Kar

"Who can remember their race between dreams? Nothing ever holds its pace between dreams. A mighty river thunders on its way, An endless quest for the place between dreams. Though predators fiercely hunt for your soul, Know they can never give chase between dreams. Cloudscapes of splendor vanish in the wind; Their existence bears no trace between dreams. This depthless farness mid the burning stars Is but the motionless space between dreams. Light ventures through and beyond the abyss, Yet will never show its face between dreams. Our pains and sorrows gather fold on fold, But who can carry their case between dreams? Your freedom flutters far in flight, Zahhar, For limitless is the grace between dreams."

--(I'm not quite sure of the source)

(p.s. I promise I'll start writing again soon...)

Mardi Gras :D

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

(Or in Cantonese... Kung Hey Fat Choy!! Lai see dow loi (hehe, have to add in tradition)) Xin nian kuai le!! Happy Lunar Chinese New Year!! Fu dao!

It is the year of the Pig...and not just any pig, the golden pig, which comes once every 600 years...If I remember correctly. It should be an eventful and significant year, a wonderful year to have babies *wink wink* (pig is the symbol of fertility+the extra golden lucky year= gifted, honest, lucky and warm-hearted children) and should turn out to be very lucky and prosperous.

http://video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=060878ff39deaf2146f818409a7160fb.1227001&cache=1

(just wanted to add that ^... which has nothing to do with China, or new years....) :D

The Truth

How long must we search for it? Or have we always known? Could it be hidden within; the supposed "most unlikely place to be searched"?

I suppose I could go on and on with this....but I'm too sleeeeepy....maybe another day..?

Happy Valentine's Day!

You are my breath,

My hope,

My companion,

My craving,

My abundant wealth.

Without You--my Life, my Love--

I would never have wandered across these endless countries . . .

I look everywhere for Your love-

Then I am suddenly filled with it.

O Captain of my Heart,

Radiant Eye of Yearning in my breast,

I will never be free from You

As long as I live.

Be satisfied with me, Love,

And I am satisfied.

--Anons.

Swiped from Astrid........

1. If I were a planet, I would be..........................Mercury

2. If I were a month, I would be.........................october...without question.

3. If I were a day of the week, I would be....................friday or sunday...either

4. If I were a time of the day, I would be.....................twilight............a magical time

5. If I were a sea animal, I would be.................Japanese fighter fish...I love the flowiness and the colors....

6. If I were a direction, I would be.................East, most definately

7. If I were a piece of furniture, I would be............an exotic poster bed with all sorts of drapes and vines hanging from the top, covered in rich india printed bedspreads and lots of fluffy pillows of different patterns with a goose feather mattress

8. If I were a sin, I would be................would you like to know...

9. If I were an historical figure, I would be..........Esther

10. If I were a liquid, I would be.............a pure, creamy milk

11. If I were a stone, I would be...................Tigers eye or Obsidian

12. If I were a tree, I would be..................an age old corkscrew willow................or a sandalwood

13. If I were a bird, I would be.............A crow!

14. If I were a tool, I would be................a book

15. If I were a flower/plant, I would be...............Lotus

16. If I were a kind of weather, I would be.........the time right before a thunderstorm when the wind is gathering and there's lightning in the distance and the air feels charged full of energy

17. If I were an animal, I would be............a panther or a fox

18. If I were a color or shade, I would be................'deep greens and blues are the colors I choose...won't you let me go down in my dreams'

19. If I were an emotion, I would be..............exultance

20. If I were a vegetable, I would be................a tomato

21. If I were a sound, I would be...................The strings being strum

22. If I were an element, I would be........mostly earth...sometimes fire.....occasionally air and water

23. If I were a car, I would be.................the one and only

24. If I were a song, I would be...............oh my.....can't ask me that...what do you think?

25. If I were a movie, I would be directed by.....................M. Night Shyamalan

26. If I were a book, I would be written by......................Hans Christian Andersen

27. If I were a food, I would be..............bread

28. If I were a place, I would be..............an oasis surrounded by vast dunes

Eye

I should be writing. Daily or more.

There really is no apparent reason for me not to right now.

But...I've, once again, fallen into my 'doldrums cycle'. It comes around every so often...though I'm yet to find some kind of pattern in order to stock up and prepare for the...emptiness. You can certainly tell this is not the first time this has happened...either by inconsistenties in my posting since I began....or elsewhere.

See.. just because I'm not writing does not mean that I don't want to, nor that I don't intend to...Just as if your ship sails into the silent doldrums...it doesn't mean you want to be there...I do mean to, and I do want to (for the most part)... but I simply cant...

And I cannot explain why I can't...I can't even explain why I can't explain why I can't!

"Silence is the true friend that never betrays." --Confucius

The Celestine Prophecy

THE FIRST INSIGHT . . . A CRITICAL MASS

A new spiritual awakening is occurring in human culture, an awakening brought about by a critical mass of individuals who experience their lives as a spiritual unfolding, a journey in which we are led forward by mysterious coincidences.

THE SECOND INSIGHT . . . THE LONGER NOW

This awakening represents the creation of a new, more complete worldview, which replaces a five-hundred-year-old preoccupation with secular survival and comfort. While this technological preoccupation was an important step, our awakening to life's coincidences is opening us up to the real purpose of human life on this planet, and the real nature of our universe.

THE THIRD INSIGHT . . . A MATTER OF ENERGY

We now experience that we live not in a material universe, but in a universe of dynamic energy. Everything extant is a field of sacred energy that we can sense and intuit. Moreover, we humans can project our energy by focusing our attention in the desired direction...where attention goes, energy flows...influencing other energy systems and increasing the pace of coincidences in our lives.

THE FOURTH INSIGHT . . . THE STRUGGLE FOR POWER

Too often humans cut themselves off from the greater source of this energy and so feel weak and insecure. To gain energy we tend to manipulate or force others to give us attention and thus energy. When we successfully dominate others in this way, we feel more powerful, but they are left weakened and often fight back. Competition for scarce, human energy is the cause of all conflict between people.

THE FIFTH INSIGHT . . . THE MESSAGE OF THE MYSTICS

Insecurity and violence ends when we experience an inner connection with divine energy within, a connection described by mystics of all traditions. A sense of lightness--buoyancy--along with the constant sensation of love are measures of this connection. If these measures are present, the connection is real. If not, it is only pretended.

THE SIXTH INSIGHT . . . CLEARING THE PAST

The more we stay connected, the more we are acutely aware of those times when we lose connection, usually when we are under stress. In these times, we can see our own particular way of stealing energy from others. Once our manipulations are brought to personal awareness, our connection becomes more constant and we can discover our own growth path in life, and our spiritual mission--the personal way we can contribute to the world.

THE SEVENTH INSIGHT . . . ENGAGING THE FLOW

Knowing our personal mission further enhances the flow of mysterious coincidences as we are guided toward our destinies. First we have a question; then dreams, daydreams, and intuitions lead us towards the answers, which usually are synchronistically provided by the wisdom of another human being.

THE EIGHTH INSIGHT . . . THE INTERPERSONAL ETHIC

We can increase the frequency of guiding coincidences by uplifting every person that comes into our lives. Care must be taken not to lose our inner connection in romantic relationships. Uplifting others is especially effective in groups where each member can feel energy of all the others. With children it is extremely important for their early security and growth. By seeing the beauty in every face, we lift others into their wisest self, and increase the chances of hearing a synchronistic message.

THE NINTH INSIGHT . . . THE EMERGING CULTURE

As we all evolve toward the best completion of our spiritual missions, the technological means of survival will be fully automated as humans focus instead on synchronistic growth. Such growth will move humans into higher energy states, ultimately transforming our bodies into spiritual form and uniting this dimension of existence with the after-life dimension, ending the cycle of birth and death.

THE TENTH INSIGHT . . . HOLDING THE VISION

The Tenth Insight is the realization that throughout history human beings have been unconsciously struggling to implement this lived spirituality on Earth. Each of us comes here on assignment, and as we pull this understanding into consciousness, we can remember a fuller birth vision of what we wanted to accomplish with our lives. Further we can remember a common world vision of how we will all work together to create a new spiritual culture. We know that our challenge is to hold this vision with intention and prayer everyday.

THE ELEVENTH INSIGHT . . . EXTENDING PRAYER FIELDS

The Eleventh Insight is the precise method through which we hold the vision. For centuries, religious scriptures, poems, and philosophies have pointed to a latent power of mind within all of us that mysteriously helps to affect what occurs in the future. It has been called faith power, positive thinking, and the power of prayer. We are now taking this power seriously enough to bring a fuller knowledge of it into public awareness. We are finding that this prayer power is a field of intention, which moves out from us and can be extended and strengthened, especially when we connect with others in a common vision. This is the power through which we hold the vision of a spiritual world and build the energy in ourselves and in others to make this vision a reality.

THE TWELFTH INSIGHT . . . IS YET TO BE REVEALED

Carnegie

Monday, March 19, 8:00 p.m.

http://www.carnegiehall.org/article/box_office/events/evt_7733.html?selecteddate=03192007

19th century

Well...no posts for a while, eh? Just been real sick off and on that passed few weeks. Not fun. Other than that, it's not been a particularly eventful week.

Let's see...This week...there was a massive fire down town. Started in an old warehouse, and spread all over the place. It took them nearly 24 hours to put it completely out. But unfortunately...that damage was pretty bad. And most of the buildings affected were actually built in the 19th century. :( History was just mercilessly burned to ashes.

and...went to the bookstore again....nerdy me....with the money I'm supposedly saving for that workshop with Moria....lol.

"This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness." -- HH The Dalai Lama

"The function of wisdom is to discriminate between good and evil."-- Circeo

"The wisdom of the wise, and the experience of ages, may be preserved by quotations."-- Isaac D'Israeli

Humanity Lobotomy

She Prayed..

"O Allah! If I worship You for fear of Hell, burn me in Hell,

and if I worship You in hope of

Paradise, exclude me from Paradise.

But if I worship You for Your

Own sake, grudge me not Your everlasting Beauty."

Rainstorm

http://sakahari.imeem.com/music/jfZCxehE/rainstorm/

So you see...

Today was a pretty boring...long...day...

Nothing interesting...exciting...influencial...epiphanic...today...as of yet...at least.

Our group has stopped bombarding our representatives with e-mails. Haha...What else can you do if you aren't capable of traveling to D.C. (the marches this passed weekend) and would like to cause a bit more stress for them...

Hmmm...well, I learned about covalent bonds in Biology...heh...and a friend of mine, well...he decided to come to class besotted...*sigh*...at least it was a little amusing...

I had to re-press my silk screen, because obviously I didn't do it good enough the first time.

Learned the Dative endings and several more words to add to my vocabulary in Latin...

Mumma sent some pictures from her trip to Cali. to design some rooms for her friend....they turned out beautiful, as always. Lavender. Golden Gate Bridge. Bienvenidos to San Fransico. Muy muy bueno. I falta tu.

So you see... not much to tell...

"Wherever a man may happen to turn, whatever a man may undertake, he will always end up by returning to the path which nature has marked out for him."--Goethe

Slave

Somebody whispered,

“Beware, she wants you on your knees!”

I whispered back:

“On my knees I whish to serve my Lady”

Someone shouted at me:

“You, poor slave of her beauty!”

I shouted back:

“Poor, so she can feed me with her mature fertility;

slave, so she can mark my body,

with signs of her sensuality.”

The other day a passerby asked:

“Where does this never ending ecstasy come from?”

I answered:

“She is the ocean and I thirst her countlessly”

Eye, Sea, Light

Everyone has felt that at least once...

Felt that short little jumping feeling you get when you try and try and try and no matter how much effort or time you put into it, it just wont come to you until the right moment... it comes when it chooses to.

Yea... that feeling, the little "click"...the little spurt of realization. You know what I'm talking about?

Just that little tug...subtract any causes or outcomes or thoughts....just the tug.....the plain old tug.

That's what I'm talking about. Now.....Imagine it lasting for more than just seconds...imagine it lasting minutes, days, months, years..forever...

The Last 2 Tablets of Toth

Secret of Secrets/ Secret of Secrets/ Now ye assemble, my children,/ waiting to hear the Secret of Secrets/ which shall give ye power to unfold the God-man,/ give ye the way to Eternal life./

Plainly shall I speak of the Unveiled Mysteries./ No dark sayings shall I give unto thee./ Open thine ears now, my children./ Hear and obey the words that I give. /

First I shall speak of the fetters of darkness/ which bind ye in chains to the sphere of the Earth./

Darkness and light are both of one nature,/ different only in seeming,/ for each arose from the source of all./ Darkness is disorder./ Light is Order./ Darkness transmuted is light of the Light. / This, my children, your purpose in being;/ transmutation of darkness to light.

Hear ye now of the mystery of nature,/ the relations of life to the Earth where it dwells./ Know ye,/ ye are threefold in nature,/ physical, astral and mental in one. /

Three are the qualities of each of the natures;/ nine in all, as above, so below./

In the physical are these channels,/ the blood which moves in vortical motion,/ reacting on the heart to continue its beating./ Magnetism which moves through the nerve paths,/ carrier of energies to all cells and tissues./ Akasa which flows through channels,/ subtle yet physical, completing the channels./

Each of the three attuned with each other,/ each affecting the life of the body./ Form they the skeletal framework through which the subtle ether flows./ In their mastery lies the Secret of Life in the body./ Relinquished only by will of the adept,/ when his purpose in living is done./

Three are the natures of the Astral,/ mediator is between above and below;/ not of the physical, not of the Spiritual,/ but able to move above and below./

Three are the natures of Mind,/ carrier it of the Will of the Great One./ Arbitrator of Cause and Effect in thy life./ Thus is formed the threefold being,/ directed from above by the power of four./

Above and beyond man's threefold nature/ lies the realm of the Spiritual Self./

Four is it in qualities,/ shining in each of the planes of existence,/ but thirteen in one,/ the mystical number./ Based on the qualities of man are the Brothers:/ each shall direct the unfoldment of being,/ each shall channels be of the Great One. /

On Earth, man is in bondage,/ bound by space and time to the earth plane./ Encircling each planet, a wave of vibration,/ binds him to his plane of unfoldment./ Yet within man is the Key to releasement,/ within man may freedom be found./

When ye have released the self from the body,/ rise to the outermost bounds of your earth-plane./ Speak ye the word Dor-E-Lil-La./

Then for a time your Light will be lifted,/ free may ye pass the barriers of space./ For a time of half of the sun (six hours),/ free may ye pass the barriers of earth-plane,/ see and know those who are beyond thee./

Yea, to the highest worlds may ye pass./ See your own possible heights of unfoldment,/ know all earthly futures of Soul./

Bound are ye in your body,/ but by the power ye may be free./ This is the Secret whereby bondage/ shall be replaced by freedom for thee./

Calm let thy mind be./ At rest be thy body:/ Conscious only of freedom from flesh./ Center thy being on the goal of thy longing./ Think over and over that thou wouldst be free./ Think of this word La-Um-I-L-Ganoover/ and over in thy mind let it sound./ Drift with the sound to the place of thy longing./ Free from the bondage of flesh by thy will./

Hear ye while I give the greatest of secrets:/ how ye may enter the Halls of Amenti,/ enter the place of the immortals as I did,/ stand before the Lords in their places/

Lie ye down in rest of thy body./ Calm thy mind so no thought disturbs thee./ Pure must ye be in mind and in purpose,/ else only failure will come unto thee./

Vision Amenti as I have told in my Tablets./ Long with fullness of heart to be there./ Stand before the Lords in thy mind's eye./

Pronounce the words of power I give (mentally);/ Mekut-El-Shab-El Hale-Sur-Ben-El-Zabrut Zin-Efrim-Quar-El./ Relax thy mind and thy body./ Then be sure your soul will be called. /

Now give I the Key to Shamballa,/ the place where my Brothers live in the darkness:/ Darkness but filled with Light of the Sun ODarkness of Earth,/ but Light of the Spirit,/ guides for ye when my day is done./

Leave thou thy body as I have taught thee./ Pass to the barriers of the deep,/ hidden place./ Stand before the gates and their guardians./ Command thy entrance by these words:/

I am the Light./ In me is no darkness./ Free am I of the bondage of night./ Open thou the way of the Twelve and the One,/ so I may pass to the realm of wisdom./

When they refuse thee, as surely they will,/ command them to open by these words of power:/ I am the Light./ For me are no barriers./ Open, I command,/ by the Secret of Secrets Edom-El-Ahim-Sabbert-Zur Adom./

Then if thy words have been Truth of the highest,/ open for thee the barriers will fall./

Now, I leave thee, my children./ Down, yet up, to the Halls shall I go./ Win ye the way to me, my children./ Truly my brothers shall ye become./

Thus finish I my writings./ Keys let them be to those who come after./ But only to those who seek my wisdom,/ for only for these am I the Key and the Way./

The trinity/

Supplementary/

List ye, O Man, to the deep hidden wisdom,/ lost to the world since the time of the Dwellers,/ lost and forgotten by men of this age./

Know ye this Earth is but a portal,/ guarded by powers unknown to man./ Yet, the Dark Lords hide the entrance that leads to the Heaven-born land./ Know ye, the way to the sphere of Arulu is guarded by barriers opened only to Light-born man./

Upon Earth,/ I am the holder of the keys to the gates of the Sacred Land./ Command I, by the powers beyond me,/ to leave the keys to the world of man./

Before I depart, I give ye the Secrets/ of how ye may rise from the bondage of darkness,/ cast off the fetters of flesh that have bound ye,/ rise from the darkness into the Light./

Know ye, the soul must be cleansed of its darkness,/ ere ye may enter the portals of Light./ Thus, I established among ye the Mysteries/ so that the Secrets may always be found./

Aye, though man may fall into darkness,/ always the Light will shine as a guide./ Hidden in darkness, veiled in symbols,/ always the way to the portal will be found./ Man in the future will deny the mysteries but always the way the seeker will find./

Now I command ye to maintain my secrets,/ giving only to those ye have tested,/ so that the pure may not be corrupted, /so that the power of Truth may prevail./

List ye now to the unveiling of Mystery./ List to the symbols of Mystery I give./ Make of it a religion for only thus will its essence remain./

Regions there are two between this life and the Great One,/ traveled by the Souls who depart from this Earth;/ Duat, the home of the powers of illusion;/ Sekhet Hetspet, the House of the Gods./ Osiris, the symbol of the guard of the portal,/ who turns back the souls of unworthy men./

Beyond lies the sphere of the heaven-born powers,/ Arulu, the land where the Great Ones have passed./ There, when my work among men has been finished,/ will I join the Great Ones of my Ancient home./

Seven are the mansions of the house of the Mighty;/ Three guards the portal of each house from the darkness;/ Fifteen the ways that lead to Duat./ Twelve are the houses of the Lords of Illusion,/ facing four ways, each of them different./

Forty and Two are the great powers,/ judging the Dead who seek for the portal./ Four are the Sons of Horus,/ Two are the Guards of East and West of Isis,/ the mother who pleads for her children,/ Queen of the Moon, reflecting the Sun./

Ba is the Essence, living forever./ Ka is the Shadow that man knows as life./ Ba cometh not until Ka is incarnate./ These are mysteries to preserve through the ages./

Keys are they of life and of Death./ Hear ye now the mystery of mysteries:/ learn of the circle beginningless and endless,/ the form of He who is One and in all./ Listen and hear it, go forth and apply it,/ thus will ye travel the way that I go./

Mystery in Mystery,/ yet clear to the Light-born,/ the Secret of all I now will reveal./ I will declare a secret to the initiated,/ but let the door be wholly shut against the profane./

Three is the mystery,/ come from the great one./ Hear, and Light on thee will dawn./

In the primeval, dwell three unities./ Other than these, none can exist./ These are the equilibrium, source of creation:/ one God, one Truth, one point of freedom./

Three come forth from the three of the balance:/ all life, all good, all power./

Three are the qualities of God in his Light-home:/ Infinite power, Infinite Wisdom, Infinite Love./

Three are the powers given to the Masters:/ To transmute evil, assist good, use discrimination./

Three are the things inevitable for God to perform:/ Manifest power, wisdom and love./

Three are the powers creating all things:/ Divine Love possessed of perfect knowledge,/ Divine Wisdom knowing all possible means,/ Divine Power possessed by the joint will of/ Divine Love and Wisdom.

Three are the circles (states) of existence:/ The circle of Light where dwells nothing but God,/ and only God can traverse it;/ the circle of Chaos where all things by nature arise from death;/ the Circle of awareness where all things spring from life./

All things animate are of three states of existence:/ chaos or death, liberty in humanity and felicity of Heaven./

Three necessities control all things:/ beginning in the Great Deep, the circle of chaos, plenitude in Heaven./

Three are the paths of the Soul: Man, Liberty, Light.

Three are the hindrances:/ lack of endeavor to obtain knowledge;/ non-attachment to god;/ attachment to evil./ In man, the three are manifest./ Three are the Kings of power within./ Three are the chambers of the mysteries,/ found yet not found in the body of man./

Hear ye now of he who is liberated,/ freed from the bondage of life into Light./ Knowing the source of all worlds shall be open./ Aye, even the Gates of Arulu shall not be barred./ Yet heed, O man, who would'st enter heaven./ If ye be not worthy, better it be to fall into the fire./ Know ye the celestials pass through the pure flame./ At every revolution of the heavens,/ they bathe in the fountains of Light./

List ye, O man, to this mystery:/ Long in the past before ye were man-born,/ I dwelled in Ancient Atlantis./ There in the Temple, I drank of the Wisdom,/ poured as a fountain of Light from the Dweller./

Give the key to ascend to the/ Presence of Light in the Great world./ Stood I before the Holy One enthroned/ in the Flower of Fire./ Veiled was he by the lightnings of darkness,/ else my Soul by the Glory have been shattered./

Forth from the feet of his Throne like the diamond,/ rolled forth four rivers of flame from his footstool,/ rolled through the channels of clouds to the Man-world./ Filled was the hall with Spirits of Heaven./ Wonder of wonders was the Starry palace./

Above the sky,/ like a rainbow of Fire and Sunlight,/ were Formed the Spirits./ Sang they the glories of the Holy One./ Then from the midst of the Fire came a voice:/ Behold the Glory of the first Cause./ I beheld that Light, high above all darkness,/ reflected in my own being./ I attained, as it were,/ to the God of all Gods,/ the Spirit-Sun,/ the Sovereign of the Sun spheres./

There is One, Even the First, who hath no beginning, who hath no end;/ who hath made all things, who govern all,/ who is good, who is just, who illumines, who sustains.

Then from the throne, there poured a great radiance,/ surrounding and lifting my soul by its power./ Swiftly I moved through the spaces of Heaven,/ shown was I the mystery of mysteries,/ shown the Secret heart of the cosmos.

Carried was I to the land of Arulu,/ stood before the Lords in their Houses.

Opened they the Doorway/ so I might glimpse the primeval chaos./ Shuddered my soul to the vision of horror,/ shrank back my soul from the ocean of darkness./ Then saw I the need for the barriers,/ saw the need for the Lords of Arulu./

Only they with their Infinite balance/ could stand in the way of the inpouring chaos./ Only they could guard God's creation./

Then did I pass ëround the circle of eight./ Saw all the souls who had conquered the darkness./ Saw the splendor of Light where they dwelled./

Longed I to take my place in their circle,/ but longed I also for the way I had chosen,/ when I stood in the Halls of Amenti/ and made my choice to the work I would do./

Passed I from the Halls of Arulu/ down to the earth space where my body lay./ Arose I from the earth where I rested./ Stood I before the Dweller./

Gave my pledge to renounce/ my Great right until my work on Earth/ was completed, until the Age of darkness be past./

List ye, O man, to the words I shall give ye./ In them shall ye find the Essence of Life./ Before I return to the Halls of Amenti,/ taught shall ye be the Secrets of Secrets,/ how ye, too, may arise to the Light./

Preserve them and guard them,/ hide them in symbols,/ so the profane will laugh and renounce./ In every land, form ye the mysteries./ Make the way hard for the seeker to tread./

Thus will the weak and the wavering be rejected./ Thus will the secrets be hidden and guarded,/ held till the time when the wheel shall be turned./

Through the dark ages, waiting and watching,/ my Spirit shall remain in the deep hidden land./ When one has passed all the trials of the outer,/ summon ye me by the Key that ye hold./

Then will I, the Initiator, answer,/ come from the Halls of the Gods in Amenti./ Then will I receive the initiate,/ give him the words of power./

Hark ye, remember, these words of warning:/ bring not to me one lacking in wisdom,/ impure in heart or weak in his purpose./ Else I will withdraw from ye your power/ to summon me from the place of my sleeping./

Hark ye, remember, these words of warning:/ bring not to me one lacking in wisdom,/ impure in heart or weak in his purpose./ Else I will withdraw from ye your power/ to summon me from the place of my sleeping. /

Now go ye forth and summon thy brothers/ so that I may impart the wisdom/ to light thy path when my presence is gone./ Come to the chamber beneath my temple./ Eat not food until three days are past./

There will I give thee the essence of wisdom/ so that with power ye may shine amongst men./ There will I give unto thee the secrets so that ye,/ to, may rise to the Heavens,/ God-men in Truth as in essence ye be./ Depart now and leave me while I summon/ those ye know of but as yet know not.

Ayat al-Kursi, Surat al-Baqarah

اللَّهُ لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ الْحَيُّ الْقَيُّومُ لاَ تَأْخُذُهُ سِنَةٌ وَلاَ نَوْمٌ لَهُ مَا فِي

السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الأَرْضِ مَنْ ذَا الَّذِي يَشْفَعُ عِنْدَهُ إِلاَّ بِإِذْنِهِ يَعْلَمُ مَا بَيْنَ

أَيْدِيهِمْ وَمَا خَلْفَهُمْ وَلاَ يُحِيطُونَ بِشَيْءٍ مِنْ عِلْمِهِ إِلاَّ بِمَا شَاءَ وَسِعَ كُرْسِيُّهُ

السَّمَاو ;َاتِ وَالأَرْضَ وَلاَ يَئُودُهُ حِفْظُهُمَا وَهُوَ الْعَلِيُّ الْعَظِيمُ

Allahu la ilaha illa Huwa, Al-Haiyul-Qaiyum La ta'khudhuhu sinatun wa la nawm, lahu ma fis-samawati wa ma fil-'ard Man dhal-ladhi yashfa'u 'indahu illa bi-idhnihi Ya'lamu ma baina aidihim wa ma khalfahum, wa la yuhituna bi shai'im-min 'ilmihi illa bima sha'a Wasi'a kursiyuhus-samawati wal ard, wa la ya'uduhu hifdhuhuma Wa Huwal 'Aliyul-Adheem

Asma' bint Yazid (radiAllahu anhu) reported, ' I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) say about these two following Ayahs, i.e, verses: "Allah! There is no god but He - the Living, The Self-subsisting, Eternal. [2:255], And, Alif Lam Mim, Allah! There is no god but He - the Living, The Self-subsisting, Eternal [3:1-2], That they contain Allah's Greatest Name." (--Imam Ahmed bin Hanbal in his Musnad)

"Do you know the Ayatul Kursi?" Anas (radi-allahu anhu) replied "I know". The Prophet (sallallahu alayhi wasallam) said, "It is equal to a quarter of the Qur'an

A Love Story

Jacob was on the run.

He was running from his brother Esau. Jacob had tricked his brother out of their father’s blessing, and now Esau was so angry... he wanted to kill him. So Jacob was traveling east, to the land where his grandfather Abraham was born.

Early on a warm afternoon, he came to a well in the fields outside the town of Haran. The well was just like the one that his grandfather’s servant had come to many years before, when he was looking for a wife for Isaac. It may have been the very same one....

Three flocks of sheep were lying in the fields beside the well, waiting for their shepherds to water them.There was a large stone covering the well, and the shepherds had to wait until all the shepherds were there before they could move it.

So Jacob came up to the shepherds and said, “My friends, where are you from?”

“From Haran,” they answered.

“Then you must know my uncle Laban! He is from Haran,” Jacob said.

“Yes, we do,” the shepherds answered.

“Is he well?” Jacob asked.

“He is well, indeed,” the shepherds said, “And look, here comes his daughter Rachel now, with his flock of sheep!”

Jacob asked, “Shall we roll back the stone so that we can water the sheep?”

“We cannot...the stone is too heavy," the shepherds answered. "We must wait until all the shepherds have arrived.”

At that moment, Rachel arrived with her father’s sheep.When Jacob’s eyes met Rachel’s... it was as if the world came to a stop. The crying of the sheep, the laughing and talking of the shepherds, all seemed to disappear. It was as if there was no one else in all the world but the two of them.

Jacob fell so deeply, crazy in love with Rachel, that he walked over to that huge stone and rolled it away himself."Here, now you may water your sheep!" he said to Rachel.

And then he kissed her.“I am your relative. Your aunt Rebekah is my mother,” he told her.

Rachel ran home to tell her father all that had happened. When her father heard the news...he ran to meet Jacob. He hugged and kissed this nephew he hadn't known until now, and brought him to his home.

When Jacob had told his story... Laban said, “You are indeed my own flesh and blood!”And so Jacob stayed with his uncle’s family for a whole month. Then Laban said to Jacob, “You should not have to work for me for nothing just because you are my relative! How shall I pay you?”

Now, Laban had two daughters. Rachel was the younger, and Leah was the older. Leah had beautiful eyes, but... Jacob was madly in love with Rachel. And so Jacob said, “I will work for you for seven years if you will let me marry your daughter Rachel.”

Laban said, “I would rather give her to you than to anyone else.”

And so Jacob worked for his uncle for seven years. But to Jacob, the years seemed like nothing at all. Just to be near the one he loved was enough to fill his heart.

Finally, the day came that Jacob had worked for all those years. At last, Laban gave his daughter Rachel to be married. There was a great wedding feast. And that night, under a sky of shining stars, Rachel came to Jacob’s tent.... She was wrapped from head to foot in layers of veils and flowing robes.

Jacob took her by the hand and led her inside. He wrapped his arms around her and held her tight. They were alone together at last. And that night, in the eyes of God, Rachel became Jacob’s wife, and he became her husband.

Before that night they were two separate people... Now God had joined the two together, and they became one family. The two became one....

But, when the light of morning came, Jacob awoke to a big surprise. It wasn’t Rachel he had married at all! It was her sister Leah he was lying beside!

Jacob jumped from his bed and ran straight to the tent of his Uncle Laban.“You tricked me! You promised me Rachel, but you gave me Leah instead!”

Well - look who's talking! The cheater got cheated.

He didn’t like it very much. Laban said to him, “It isn’t our custom to give the younger daughter in marriage before the older. How about...you work for me another seven years, and I will allow you to marry Rachel as well."

And of course...despite his uncle's treacherous motive...Jacob agreed. And Jacob and Rachel were married at last. The two became one....

Jacob had worked for his uncle another seven years...but he would have gladly worked a hundred, for his love for Rachel ran longer than the longest river, deeper than the core of the universe...

(reference....Genesis 29)

I'm giving my heartless thoughts too much power....

I am not capable of helping myself... "Not strong enough to pay the price. I find myself yearning for the numbness of surrender. Does clarity get easier to bear with time? I find myself dreaming of the comfort of foggy blindness, and willing to submit for the sake of survival. If the goal is simplicity, surely this is the simplest path to that end.." ((--Melissa Cameron)).

Buddhist Wisdom

Whose minds are well-developed

in the factors of self-awakening,

who delight in non-clinging,

relinquishing grasping--

resplendent,

their effluents ended:

they, in the world,

are Unbound.

--Dhammapada 6, translated by Thanissaro Bhikkhu.